tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post3522175535479577766..comments2023-08-06T08:21:44.219-07:00Comments on Blessed ~8~ Chaos: Mothers DayKasey / Meganhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00078945657068159960noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post-35228592574125348762011-05-11T16:59:20.655-07:002011-05-11T16:59:20.655-07:00I identify with this a lot. I've got a family...I identify with this a lot. I've got a family history and a condition with a big ugly name that could possibly keep me from having children naturally, and besides that, I haven't even had the chance to try. I've wanted to be a mom since I was five, and it's the one thing I want out of life, at the cost of everything else. I've become really comfortable and even excited about the idea of adoption, but not getting to be pregnant, or having people think like my children wouldn't "really" be mine, making motherhood invalid feels like a loss before I ever had it.<br />A lot of people don't understand the impact that infertility could have on a woman's life. Someone brought a book to my church once about dealing with loss, with a picture of books on a shelf of things that could be the cause, and everyone else seemed confused that a book called "infertility" would be on a shelf with death of a spouse or a parent, when I was sitting there saying "That's me." If they've got no reason to experience it, it often doesn't even occur to people how consuming the desire to be a mother can be. God bless men like Tim, who has always been aware of motherhood as an aspiration.<br />"On days like today, it's difficult to fight off the seductive comfort of slipping into the numbness depression offers." I really get this. Having to function and access emotions is taxing when the one thing you want is just out of reach, and it's easier just to not. I hope you can hold the hope you have for comfort, and I pray that the mother that is already there in you has her chance to really shine. It's not just practice when you care for kids who happen to be born to someone else. I hope that this happens for you and Jorma. You're not alone.Hannahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07125560777842812398noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post-41143181595405614432011-05-10T10:50:36.932-07:002011-05-10T10:50:36.932-07:00Thanks, Niki :)Thanks, Niki :)Kasey / Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00078945657068159960noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post-67459935301489307912011-05-09T22:56:26.819-07:002011-05-09T22:56:26.819-07:00Practice makes perfect!!! -NikiPractice makes perfect!!! -NikiAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post-16153405694745422792011-05-09T14:31:14.781-07:002011-05-09T14:31:14.781-07:00Thanks so much, Heather. I really appreciate it. ...Thanks so much, Heather. I really appreciate it. My goal is just to "be okay, regardless of what happens," so I'm trying not to put too much stress on "trying to get pregnant." Only God knows what's in store. I really appreciate your encouragement and support!Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02444357322618527774noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2949669473089998560.post-81859820154994240772011-05-09T14:25:08.771-07:002011-05-09T14:25:08.771-07:00Megan, I am sorry to hear the struggle you're ...Megan, I am sorry to hear the struggle you're having. I know what you are going through. It took me almost a year to get pregnant with both of the boys. I also remember a couple Mother's days that were very hard for me, taking a pregnancy test and having it be negative, once again. I worried so much about not getting pregnant that I think I was making the situation worse. I know how unfair life can seem at times and I thank God everyday for my family. I wish there was something I could say or do to make it easier for you but hopefully your patience will pay off and it will be worth the wait. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I have been there. I will keep you in my prayers.Heatherhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05978768542817113961noreply@blogger.com